Dr Su Su Yin was doing surgical rounds at Yangon Central Women’s Hospital when a friend came to her with a problem – she was unmarried and pregnant. She asked Dr Yin for an abortion. But abortion has long been illegal in Myanmar, except for cases when a woman’s life is at risk. And anyone who assists illegal abortion can face up to three years in prison.So Dr Yin told her friend she would not provide an abortion. Days later, she got a phone call from the same friend who complained of a stomach ache. Yin says she went to her friend’s house, where she was hit by a foul smell. Her friend had developed a near-fatal infection after getting an abortion at a clinic…Yin took her friend to the hospital. She says the other doctors recognized that her friend had had an illegal abortion and treated her poorly… “At that time I didn’t do any supportive things,” Yin says. “I feel guilty.” Yin now thinks abortion should be legal in Myanmar… “Because of the law, many women die,” she says. But not that many people share Yin’s perspective.In Myanmar, most people practice Theravada Buddhism, which says life starts at conception. Still, studies suggest an estimated 250,000 Burmese women get illegal abortions each year. It’s a leading cause of maternal death in Myanmar. While contraceptives are available, they can be difficult to obtain, particularly for poor women and women living in rural areas.Women with enough money and the right connections can get safe – though illegal – abortions from trained medical practitioners, like Dr. Zaw. After he graduated from medical school, he opened an illegal clinic in downtown Yangon. He says there are about 50 clinics like his in Yangon. If these clinics didn’t exist, Zaw says, women would have to rely on untrained providers who perform dangerous procedures. “Girls would go to illegal clinics,” he says, “and they would get an infection and die.Zaw… says he chose this career to save women’s lives. But he admits that he makes a lot of money from his services – more money, he says, than if he worked in a hospital. He charges up to $300 (US) for an abortion, a lot of money in Myanmar, where people make on average under $1,300 per year. And Zaw struggles with his Buddhist values. He figures that even though he’s ending a life, he’s also saving one. “I do one good thing, but I do one bad thing,” Zaw says. Providing safe abortions is good and bad, he says. It’s a karmic balance, he says, that he can live with.SOURCE + DRAWING: PRI, by Shaina Shealy, 8 September 2016